Let my cry come before you, O Lord; give me understanding according to your word ”(Psalm 119: 169, RV60).
It was a December 28 that I will never forget. We were in Honduras, because my children had been invited to participate in a wedding, when a phone call interrupted our joy: my grandmother had just died. In addition to being saddened by the news, we had to change our plans. We had to drive eight hundred kilometers throughout the night to reach San José, in Costa Rica, and take care of the details of the burial. For me, my grandmother was my second mother.
My heart froze when I saw her in the coffin, her eyes closed. I was then notified that the pastor of the church was not in town, as he had just gone on vacation, so I prepared to preach myself at the funeral that we would celebrate the next day. Between the pain of the loss and the lack of sleep, I felt unable to concentrate, but I had to. I got up at three in the morning to pray to God, telling him with broken pleas to give me understanding according to his Word, to preach something at the funeral that would move those present before the stark reality of death and the fleeting nature of life .
How do you know what to say and how to act when you’re having such a hard time and when many pairs of eyes and ears are going to be paying attention? I might not have been able to tell the right message for myself, but my cry came before Jehovah and I have no doubt that he heard it. Many visitors came to the funeral, including several people who had stopped going to church. I saw their tears fall that afternoon and I saw the Holy Spirit work in them in a supernatural way.
Dear friend, that God who was at my disposal at such a crucial moment in my life, is at your disposal today. Cry out, on this day, in such a way that you receive understanding to act according to his Word and his will.
«Prayer is the holiest exercise of the soul. It should be sincere, humble, and fervent. (…) When the supplicant feels that he is in the divine presence, he will forget himself. He will have no desire to show off human talent, he will not try to please the ears of men, but to obtain the blessing that the soul longs for «(Councils for the Church, p.533).